Still Waiting My Soulmate

I was four when I realised I needed you. Whenever I witnessed two hands holding passionately I would literally cry. I had a loving family, but it wasn’t enough for me. I needed you. My soul mate. The other half that will complete me. I knew you would be special. Someone who would fill the void inside me. No one could fill it but you.xageed aadeey nan yahey

And as the years went by I remember wishing to meet you, bump into you and hab kusiiyo. I wished that I could just take a peek at the unseen and find out what you were doing at that specific moment. If you were thinking of your soul mate; me. I have spent many lonely days and nights without you, growing on my own, exploring the world through eyes that wish to see you. I remember days when I would cry because I missed you, even though I have never met you. But I believe we have met, before we came to earth; this is how strong my feelings are for you. walaahi been ma ahan dee inanyahey

I’ve loved you before I even met you. I know I will love you when I meet you and get to know you. I know I will sacrifice my life for you. I would be happy to take a bullet for you, just so you can live on, because I know I would die without you. Ma garatey dee iananyahey

My soul mate, I don’t know how I have survived all these years without you, but I have, successfully. I know when I do meet you though, I will wonder how I ever did get along without you, your love, your care, your voice, the gentle loving way you will look at me.

All I want is your love. All I want is to feel it, even if we sit across the room from each other. I want to be showered with emotional love. I want to feel that you genuinely can’t live without me, that you adore me, honour me, love me. I want you to be my best friend, someone I can talk to, laugh with, run around the park with and play hide and seek, screaming with laughter. seewaaye waan inaan baashaalnaa dee

I want to have a special connection with you, for us to be much more than husband and wife; friends, family, soul mates, twin souls. It’s that simple for me, to have that special love with you. To feel that I’m one of the most important people in your life. To feel that you can’t breathe without me, like I can’t breathe without you. To be sleeping in the middle of the night and feel you hold me because you love me. To be watching TV or reading a book and to have you cuddle up to me. To be walking in the street and have you hold my hand with love and devotion in your eyes.

This doesn’t just have to happen in the movies…it can happen for us too, if you open your heart and believe in Allah’s power to do anything; believe that you can find me so I can love you. So you can love me. walaahi bee ah dee

Until then I am still four years old, in a boxer surwaal gaban, looking at the others holding hands, laughing together, wishing we could be in that place. I am in no rush. I am in no hurry. I await patiently. I travel the world looking for you. I develop personally and professionally, religiously, so I can be better for you.

You deserve the best, I want to be able to deserve you. I know you will be mine, you were written for me before I was placed on earth. And if it is not our time to meet in this world, I will gladly die without loving anyone else, so we can begin our lives in heaven together, with our pure, true love that will last for all eternity. aamiin ee kuaawey dee